Original design

This might be one of those days where you don't even know yourself. It kicks bak into your face when you sit back and think about what has happened. When it feels like you are about to give everything to be someone. I hate this.

I don't want to be someone I'm not and I feel that I am like this too often. Maybe I was it my whole life, only in the times where I sat back and thought about myself.

Where is that place where I can be what I am. I think this is the reason god says, he is who he is.
He never changes. I'm so far from what I'm supposed to be.

Try to find someone who is actually who he really is... Impossible!
there is always something there usually not!

In the end the original design is there, where we come from. Creator redraw the picture of me. I went to far, but now I'm crying out for my real ME! Here I am lord change me!