Let's worship

While writing the last post, I saw that the topic of worship is absolutely linked to the last one.

I was asked a couple of times to lead worship at some places, but I always said that I don't do this kind of worship anymore. Maybe it's time to explain you why.

I'm living in a relationship with Jesus and in this relationship I want to be truely myself.

I always thought, that I truely worship Jesus through playing guitar and singing songs.

Well I still love to do that, but I haven't found a way, yet, to lead people in this new style of worship I discovered.

Jesus loves me, takes care of me. He truely made my life absolutely awesome and showed me that I don't have to worry anymore and that I can be who I truely am.

I would say that worship comes from the heart and I think that worship can take place everywhere to everytime and even can be there for a very long time and I'm talking about months or years.

Worship is the outpouring of hearts for someone. It means it can't be created, it can't be prepared.
Worship happens!

Jesus lead me through the darkest times to show me religion and finally he brought me to a true relationship.

I think that worship is brought to Jesus out of pure love that is developing through realising and believing who God is and what he has done and then the whole container overflows with love and this will happen in the way you feel it. You WILL not care about what others think, you WILL just worship.
Worship is overflow and nothing else!

You can't worship without being full with love for Jesus...
...but I can release you! You don't have to, because Jesus loved you first and always will!

It's not our duty to love and worship God!

He just said: belive in meand what I've done!

Worship happens! And it happens, the way you are.

When you are happy about Gods creation, worship is there, because you give him praise through your feelings. When you play guitar, and what ever you play, worship is there, because you do something God created you for, using your God given gifts.

Worship happens, where you are who you truely are, because that's how God made you...

...and you are made perfectly, awesome, beautiful, nice, kind... everything good you can think of.

(I think there is another topic... Identity, but that's for another post)

Truely worship is something you can't make up. It's something, that comes from inside of you true being.
Get to know and believe God and you will overfolw.

In this way... Enjoy.

Well, it's about life or death!

I recently had an amazing conversation.
It was all about believing. Living on the right side and all that stuff.
This one is for all those who have hard times to believe that the life on the bright side is the right thing to do and actually even more than this... :)

I just want to give you a picture that's quite drastic...
Think of the two sides, the Devils side and Jesus side... sounds like a lot you heared before...
But I bring this to the top of it!
You have to decide in your life where you want to be, on the dark side or on the bright side.
But here is this:

This decision shouldn't be that hard if you're looking at these two ways to live.

You can decide to live in fear, terror, pain, hard situations and just desert all the time which is the life you live in darkness. It's pure pain. It is death, the absence of happiness. It's a life that never will feel complete.

And...
You can decide to live in happiness with Christ inside of you. Jesus living right through you, as a son of God, pure and holy. Living in the state of complete forgiveness grants you the possibility to live in everlasting life.
Life is not the thing you do on this earth. Life is to live in completion, without any fear that will break you down or living in happiness that will NEVER be taken away from you.

I think you get that this decision is actually pretty easy if you look at it this way.

But how does all that happiness work?
Well, there will be no 10 point plan I will give you, it's just about beliving, trusting in the sacrifice, the grace of God and your identity you have since the day of salvation.

God is absolutely happy to be with you all the time of your life, he can't be taken away from you. The curtain, that separated us from the holy of holies, was cut after Jesus was crucified, which means the holy of holies is open for everyone, which is the presence of God.
When we start to BELIVE he turely gives the best for us, we can live without fear.
We will live a life without worries, because the one who cares about us is God, the crator of the universe.
When we believe all this and live inside of this knowledge we will get happy and worship God more and more. We will be truely happy when we truely stop looking on our dayly problems and start believing that Jesus cares and that EVERYTHING we are going through is for our best, we wil stop having headaches.

Even when we forget something, or we do something wrong, Jesus takes care of us! What a relief!!!!!!

You see, this is why I belive in Jesus and I'm already starting to ban bad thoughts and habits from my life, because I see that it's worth living in joy made by Jesus!
This joy will increase every day, get ready!

In this way... enjoy.

Art and the way we live

Hey there,
Just recently I started my studies for a creative job and for me as someone who lives with christ in an art environment, I am confronted with lots of questions.
In wich way can I live my creative lifestyle that God loves it? How should I implement my believes?

I have always been a creative person and I needed something like writing, drawing or music to express myself. I needed it to let it out. Sometimes I just wanted to draw some cool creatures or I wanted to scream in a metal band, but there was always the thought of not fitting into Gods thoughts there. I thought he wouldn't like what I'm doing.

These last weeks gave me a lot of time to think about it agiain, again and again.
I came to one interesting point... Let's look at art itself. What is the nature oft art?
Art is expression of the things we experience, that we see, dream or feel.
God is the first ever artist to me. He created it because he wanted to share and he loved us soo much and made us perfect (or does God make any failures :) ). He was and is expressing his love and joy for us through all the cool things on earth, think of these crazy skies that always change and have the most crazy formed clouds in it, or look at sparkling snow in the sun and soooo much more.
He made it for us to enjoy it or feel as well. Art makes us come alive sometimes or gives us interesting perspectives at things.

I use my art to release my fantasies, the thoughts spinning in my head, making me think too much.
All the good and bad thoughts need to be released, because I am somebody who feels the urge to share.
I don't need to necesserily show it to others, but the release comes by putting it into art form.

So my art will look the way I experience things, or the way my thoughts look like to me. It can be that you may see a picture that looks totally dark, or evil and then there is this next one totally beautiful and warm.
And there is the point where I always struggled.
Can I really draw that, what I feel like drawing right now? Can I scream because it feels right to scream it into the world to give it more power? Or is all that something evil, God doesn't like...

I thought about this quite a long time, because I always heared the thoughts about this kind of art. "Well maybe there is the devil inside..." or "Does that reflect Gods personality?"
Well I totally found out, that at this point it's not about God at all. It's about me and my feelings, experiences, thoughts. It's about my special way of living, my special way of enjoying or disliking. It's about expressing MYSELF.
I totally believe that God wants us to be real and that's why he wants us to also pour out our heart on paper, scream our loungs out to shout a message into this world or do what ever we like to do to express our innerest beeing, the point we are standing at right now.

In art, it's not about wrong or right, it's about yourself and only yourself. be authentic in your art, but of course also in your daily life, because that's what God wants from you. Don't let anyone tell you, the way you express is wrong.

I see so many people trying to be something they are not, especially in church, because we often tend to put the devil into things, that are actually amazing parts of this special perfect made individual.

I could say these next sentences a thousand times:
When the personal way of yours, to express yourself, feels natural and just flows out of you, then NEVER EVER let this be taken away from you!
Don't let others judgement change the art you bring.

Doing something for God?

Something really interesting came up to me the last couple of weeks. I was talking to many young people about life and future. Sometimes I felt it, the hopelessness. Finding the meaning of your own life can be so tearing. There are so many possibilities in our time, many different ways we can go and the support of other shrinks, because they are busy on their own. It's all about being busy, doing something, otherwise you're worthless, is that so?

I think that's something that makes us stay in this rushing mood all of our life and that's what makes us miss the real joy. You see God really longs for your heart! I don't mean that he likes being with you some days, I mean he is jealous. I think he is the most jealous person ever, but it's not that jealousy that breaks the other person involved. He wants you to feel, enjoy and take part of his glory and love.
He wants to give you from his amazing wealth, but we always try to drag us out of the swamp on our own...
That's the deserts we face, when we try to get out on our own, when we put all our strengh into something that God could change with the snip of his finger, instantly powerful.

I think God is not looking for people who work for him, but he is looking for people who love him.
Compare this to a real good friendship you have. When you love a person you do things for him/her easily, not because you have to, but you want to and that's the way Jesus wants you to do things. Can you really say that you want to do all the things you do freely or is it the voice inside you telling you when you don't do it, you will be a bad friend...
Where lies our focus here? Do we try to be a good friend to God, or do we let Jesus love us and out of fulfillment comes the loving him?
He loved us first! He gives us the strength to love him. We will never bring Jesus to love us, or give us anything. He will give it out of love in the times of intimacy, in these time you recognize him alone. He is here, always!

How do we let Him love us, you might ask. It's quite simple! Enjoy!
It's about enjoying Gods eternal presence, the glory that's here already. The things he already gave us in this world. We really should enjoy his creation.
The cool thing about enjoying something is, that we will never be able to make ourselves to enjoy!
Well, but that's the only way we will truely be able to serve God out of love...

Haha, you see, there will be no way we can do something in this world on our own. Freedom is given to us in the times we enjoy HIM! Works will be set free out of a stage of completely enjoying HIM! Finances, possibilities to do something, fulfillment of our dreams will come out of enjoying HIM!
We can't do a thing for all that! He wants to give, but we don't get it. We think, that we will get more out of working for HIM...
Just enjoy HIS amazingness, awesomeness, beauty, wealth, or whatever you can think of he is.
HE IS GOOD!

Exhale

It cuts, It cuts this situation aching, silence is violence
thoughts dying out like planets with no rain

It is so strange, where does all the water go
I remember the temper I had
when I stood up to shout out
no words just expression,
the session of letting it out

A poet with no words,
A poet of inside cries
to tell the world out there
to look out where we all started
the part where we once were
in real silence, no violence at all
The peace we denied, still seeking
seeking the eyes we once saw.

I fight, I FIGHT with my eyes
who tell me these lies
tell me: you don't
you won't ever delight
in the light of creations creator again.

The air to inhale
no fighting, no sleeping to dream
of what we ALREADY HAVE!

And it lasts...
the picture of home
Alone
I can't remember at least
a color, but the emotional feast

And it lasts...
remembering the fantasies
that are no fantasies at all!

I sit, I cry, no longer I lie
to myself, we mess it up ourselves.
But we can make it beautiful
by giving this dream
to all those insightful.
to make it explode
the thought  of constant pain.
There is gain from everyone!

Look to the skies
Look to the skies
His eyes are upon us

inhale the cries
exhale the lies
spit them out
'cause we all dream of one thing alive

Let's look to the son
we can stand as one
and sing till all pain is gone
Alive is the son
we can stand as one
and sing till all pain is gone!

Express yourself!

Express yourself!

What burns inside of my heart is young people and their identity. I see that many kids loose the mirror. I don't mean the one in the morning, to make yourself ready for the day, I mean the one that happens every day inside of our hearts. The look that reveals our deepest dreams and passions, the one that makes us who we really are.

Kids loose their selfs through TV, Games or other things, turning their gaze to something that would be great to be, away from the way to express what they already are. It happens when people aren't encouraged enough to be who they actually are, where people miss to understand that everyone is a huge and spectacular gem with one special way to be. It happens where there is absolutely no one, or not the knowledge of someone who loves them unconditionally. It's acceptance that helps us to develope our individual way to think and live.

I want to be a tool for God to speak his absolute love into other people, through the way I normally live, releasing this love Jesus gave me, everywhere I go!

my Vision

I want to have the possibility to give young people every opportunity they need to release the beauty inside of their own hearts. It means, I want to be able to show a variety of ways to express, like ART, MUSIC and SPORTS.

I want to build a stage and family like enviornment for young people, to help them grow a high level of confidence in their own God given identity. This place should be a catalyst to selfknowledge and selfrespect.

How is this going to look like?

Everytime I think about it I just get the impression of the natural way of being a role model in an natural, accepting enviornment. It means a place where people just live a "normal" life, inviting and accepting people to join this bunch of friends.

It's a place where people do what they usually do, but with the slight difference of allowing people to join.

This needs groups, institutions, companies... with enough courage to step out of a hardcore business oriented way into an accepting, leading, facilitating... enviornment.
That needs a "role model company"-thing, to show it's possible and actually absolutely helping the developement of peoples skills, but as well the business possibilities, because this is where specialists rise!

For me

This is how I want my life to look like, sharing, facilitating developement and in the end seeing this huge joy being released in people.

I'm not writing you this, so you can read it, to just like it, but this should help you to think about how you see your life. What is important to you? How can that look like?

Write it down, make it for you to reach and to think about it to make it develope, because it's always changing, on and on.

It helps to share your passions.

Passions released means passions in others torched.

I hope my idea spreads, because this is active love that can change sooo much!

I love this life.

I am here in my room trying to remember what I just went through.
Complete independency from every thing around. Not even close to thinking „what do the others think of me“, or something like this.
I was just free, and still I am. This beauty that God is taking me through is just breathtaking. I never experienced something like this, because I always tried to fullfill the ways of the world.
I am not trying to do what they tell me, but I will do what I really want...
When I want to change something, I need to do something about it and it is not difficult anymore, because it‘s my passion.
I can‘t redeem the world more than how God already  did.
He is the source of freedom and we try to put it into boxes and limit Gods freedom, because we desperatly try to understand how he is doing it, so we can redeem ourselfes.
This is so ridiculous! We really don‘t need to do anything anymore, we just need to follow.
Nothing can break us anymore, nothing can move us anymore, because all the ways we feel is just answeres of the body, but the way we answer to it is the point where it gets tricky.
What is that feeling about, we just felt... what is that reaction about, we just had...

Everything we do now on this earth is, to get to know ourselfes and God.
What pleases him.
It‘s not something we HAVE to do, but something we WANT to do. We are completely free from all these, „we have to this“ „ we must do that“.
The only thing we have to is rest... doesn‘t sound that hard, ha?

We love him, that is the reason why we act... out of love to him!
We don‘t act because we want to earn his love! That would never even work in any way!
Because we have the knowledge of what he did for us, we will move.
When we don‘t we won‘t and we shouldn‘t, because that‘s what the law‘s about!

Everything, and I mean everything, that is not based on the foundament of love, is sin! :D
Sounds harsh, but it is soooo easy.
Because this is how a relationship works.
We get to know someone, we meet with him/her to get to know this person. Out of that we have affection for this person and this is where the action is born. We have the wish to make this person happy and to make him/her have a nice day or what ever we yould imagine!
But it‘s all our joy, nothing made up, or something we put over our faces like masks. It‘s something pure and lovely.

We really need to think about all these words that people told us and what they mean in the context of the bible. Out of that we get a new understading of what this Gopsel really means. We will understand, that God is always happy and so it means, he doesn‘t need us to be happy. But we love to make him smile, because we love him.
God is always happy and this means, even our deepest failure doesn‘t change anything he is.
He is pure loveing, righteous ... all these things how he is like!

What does that anger of God means?
Ok, now we need to think of time here...
We all know, that God became angry on the Isrelites because they failed to walk in the steps of the law.
He punished them and showed them all the consequences that come out of that law he gave them.

Now let us think to this glorious day, where Jesus went to the cross.
What did he do there?
He died for the sins he never admitted. He died because of us. He died to pay the price that we should pay.
We were a sinful creature. This day he took all the sins. I say that again, all these sins!
So this means also all the wrath God could pour out on us, actually he took all of Gods wrath at this time at the cross. In the graden where he prayed and was swetting blood, he knew what was ahead of him, that he would take the wrath of God, for all the people who walked, walk and will walk on this earth.

So what does that say to us... Gods anger is gone, we are free.

Now we would think, that we need to take care about ourselfes, to not sin again.
But he actually took the sin of all time, means everytime we sin it‘s taken away.
We could think about doing what ever we like. Jeah that is true, but not in the way the world would see it.
When we really believe in what I just wrote about, we won‘t be able to sin anymore, because we know this God and we wouldn‘t even think of the idea to start sinning again.
Am I saying, that we are able to never sin again? Ohhhhhh YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But why do we still do it... Because we don‘t know him yet, that well, that we are so far to never hurt him again. In this we realy need to understand, that we don‘t have to go crazy on getting to know him and try to make ways out of this to get to know him, and when we do this we will get this...
God isn‘t working like this. He has no method. We only can get to know him really easy, when we just are who we are, when we don‘t try to pretend to be holy or something like this.
We are free, we are crazy and when we talk to him, we can ask him to show us what we want to understand, or what we wnat to know from him. He will answer, but we should expect something we haven‘t expected.

That is what praying, talking to God is about! It‘s not about talking about us, we can do this sure!
I think everybody needs that to talk about him/herself to share how we are feeling, but I think also, that God wants to share who he is.
And again, we should not make a method out of how he speaks... That‘s not who he is. He will talk in a way you can understand. We don‘t have to fight that he is talking to us. He already talks and talks and talks, all the time. I think we would freak out, because he is talking so much, just kidding, we would be amazed by what he is talking to us.

Everything‘s gonna be alright!
That should be our motto. Everyday, we can say that and we will freak out, what this is going to change in our whole lifestyle. Because he is making everything for our good!
Even the hardest things become easy when we don‘t start worrying about how it should have been or what this whole situation is going to look like. It is said and done, everything‘s gonna be alright!
We don‘t have to suffer anymore, we don‘t have to worry, we don‘t even have to care about the next day, because he loves us so.

I think one think is nice to know, that we can take our responsibility in all the areas of our lifes. That is what makes him proud, but when we try to do it without him... then we are going to see, that everything‘s gonna be alright then! He is there and catches us when we try to go our own way! :)

This God is so amazing! We do noe everything we do, only because we want to praise him, from the bottom of our heart! (don‘t try to praise him from the bottom of your heart, you will fail, but if you don‘t try you will for sure do it!)

Again, you can ask, you can write!
I love you guys!